I had a dream last night that Jackie and I were all chummy with Charlize Theron. The three of us were outside walking together, arm in arm, and she was leading us off into a weird rocky area with uneven ground that looked like a construction area. I was very uneasy about going so far away from other people, into an area that looked so deserted, but she said it was where she’d filmed her last movie, and she wanted to show us the site. We walked down the bumpy dirt path for what seemed like forever, and still nothing turned up. I got more and more anxious but she had her arms firmly linked in mine so I couldn’t get away without having to directly shake her off. Plus, she kept smiling her beautiful seductive smile at us and then I would think, come on, this isn’t some serial killer, it’s Charlize Theron… highly erroneous reasoning, I realized even in the dream, but I don’t think any of us would be capable of resisting her in real life either. So we kept on walking.
Lisa’s famous dream analysis
Living in Hollywood is drawing me from my original focus, down the path of bad things. That makes me anxious and I keep thinking I should just turn my back on it and run away, but I’m sucked in by the glamour.
What prompted this
Ying, Jackie and I went shopping on Friday and I ended up spending an unjustifiably large amount of money on several beautiful and glamorous pieces: a jacket, a wrap, a scarf, a camisole, and a pair of earrings. I look fabulous in all of them, and they all go together, but they’re much more LA than most of my clothes: all of them have gold in them in some way (coloring, trim, metal)! Still, even though they’re not like the other clothes I own, they’re not things I wouldn’t wear, and (to my surprise when I tried them on) I still look like myself when I wear them — just a more glamorous version of my usual self. So they’re not exactly unwise purchases, just sort of frivolous. I felt very guilty for buying them (even though I love them, and put back several other things that I also looked great in but loved less, just so I wouldn’t spend quite so much), and I felt anxious that I shouldn’t have introduced Jackie to this store because she’s supposed to be saving money too. This bothered me a lot and that must be why I had that dream.
In other news…
Check out these completely adorable cupcakes I baked tonight!
[This post was imported on 4/10/14 from my old blog at satsumabug.livejournal.com. It may interest you to know that of the five glitzy articles I purchased, I still have three of them. I wore one of them practically into the ground, the earrings broke and I haven’t bothered to fix them though I should, and the scarf I wear constantly. The jacket and cami I almost never wore, and ultimately gave away.]
what is the filling? those cuppycakes look scrumptious!
and you and I both know that I don’t have to tell you but I will anyway – you’re not supposed to spend that much money! you don’t need any of these things and you know if you buy things, jackie will want to buy things, and you BOTH aren’t supposed to be spending money. yes, maybe buying one of those things I could shrug off since everybody has those weak moments for one great thing. but all of those? a jacket, wrap, scarf, camisole, and earrings? I don’t want to think about how much it cost. moving down to la doesn’t make it okay for you to spend all that money. remember how much we scoffed at the socal fashion and frivolousness? by the way, will you be free sometime for a meal in 2 weekends? i’ll be down there for disneyland. i’ll email you about it later. but anyway, take care to watch your money. later in life there will only be more things to spend money on. don’t get into the habit too much now. i’m just trying to look out for you the best i can.
It is oK
Regardless to what other people say, I say go for it. Life is short. If you want something, get it. Why wait and for what?? Life is too short to feel guilty about a store that you introduced a friend to. If she didn’t want to go, she wouldn’t have. Freedom of choice my friend. Anyway, I want the name of the store please. My mother is in the hospital, heart problems, so I am in the mood to make every last thing count, even impulsive purchases. Take care. Love you.