Open Mic Friday! you talk: clothes

Happy first Friday of March, dear friends, and welcome to the Open Mic! If you’re new here, on Fridays we get together here for some chat. (Sometimes there’s a guest artist instead.) The topic varies from week to week, but everyone is welcome to participate in the comments.

Lisa in red hatLet’s talk clothes today, because I have a ridiculous new hat and am happy about it. It is handmade by a local designer and it reminds me of old paintings like Girl with a Pearl Earring, in which you admire the overall effect and then wrinkle up your face and ask yourself, “Wait… what is she wearing on her head, anyway?”

I used to think my interest in fashion was frivolous, and it’s true that it can be (when I think of all the money I spent at LA sample sales, trying vainly to be trendy!). But I don’t think it’s only that. Some people truly don’t care about clothes; Erik, for example, would be (I believe) very happy to follow the Steve Jobs style of dressing. I wouldn’t.

Stacking fruit in 2008I think even if I were the only person left on the planet, I’d still enjoy adorning myself from time to time. There’s something very deeply, instinctively pleasing about it. It’s the same reason I like to arrange pinecones in lines, or stack oranges (and pomelos, and limes, and kumquats) atop one another. I suspect it has something to do with bringing order to a chaotic world, or in the case of self-ornamentation, distinguishing myself as an individual and not just a mass of cells like any other living organism.

I want to hear about how clothes affect you (even if they don’t). Tell me about how you  dress yourself. Do you have favorite articles of clothing, power outfits, items you long for but can’t afford? Are there cherished sartorial memories from your past? Or would you, too, gladly dress yourself daily in a uniform in order to never shop again?

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Three-pronged self-care

Cramped contracted withdrawn stunted
Burdened confined
Paralyzed
Cluttered crowded scattered
Buried drowning grasping
Restless distracted

Purposeless pointless

That is how I feel, physically and otherwise, when my life is out of balance. My body aches, especially in my neck, shoulders, back, and hips. My brain runs a hamster wheel of inconsequential details and short-term planning. I don’t sleep well, or I keep myself up late cramming in more words and thoughts and pictures, until I drop off from sheer saturation. It’s not always this unbearable, but the difference is of degree; whenever things are off-kilter, this is how it feels. Cramped contracted withdrawn stunted… 

When we first moved into my aunt’s house I could tell I was heading in this direction, so I attempted to steer myself clear. I restarted my morning pages, which helped a little; writing siphons off some of those ceaseless thoughts on my head. Another day I dragged a mat outside and did yoga under the trees in Ayi’s backyard, watching with wonder as three hawks landed in the branches overhead. The next day I took a long shower, and then I turned off my computer and music for a while and walked around the house in quiet.

Later I thought, hmm. I need all these things together.

Reflection. Thinking about what matters. Pulling what’s true from the babel in my mind. Reconnecting to a sense of self that isn’t buffeted about by external factors. Morning pages, thoughtful conversations with friends.

Expansion. Remembering that I deserve to take up space in the world. Stretching into that. Feeling my worth. Playing with the outer reaches of who I am, who I might be. Yoga,  stretching, dancing, tending to my appearance, bold action. 

Reception. Opening. Making room for the new. Taking in. Quiet, listening. Solitude, outdoor time, meditation, savasana, freedom from electronic devices and other stimuli.

Any one of these things is great, but unless I bring in the others too, I still run the risk of falling into the hamster wheel. I notice that I’ve listed them in order of what’s easiest for me to access; quiet stillness is the hardest thing for me, and I’m always putting it off.

I suspect it’s going to take me a long, long time to remember how to take care of myself in this three-part way, but at least now I know what I need. I’ll have to keep coming back to this as we travel and it throws me off-kilter. Reflect, expand, receive.

 

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Pina: context and experience

Poster for film PinaThey say “talking about music is like dancing about architecture.” What happens when you try to make a film about dance? It works… and it doesn’t… and it does.

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More ocean

On Friday we went to Santa Cruz to walk along the beach. There was a wonderful path that wound right along the shoreline and as I looked out at the water I realized my ocean poem wasn’t adequate. That is, it is the poem of someone who loves having the ocean nearby, but hasn’t actually been next to it in a while. Real ocean is much bigger and stronger and greater… I don’t think I could write a poem to that. Paint, maybe. But the poem is good for the little ocean-notion in my heart. :)

Here’s the real ocean (still seen from the comfort of land, on a calm day!):

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Open Mic Friday! you talk: disruptions

Happy Friday, sweet companions, and welcome to the Open Mic! If you’re new here, on Fridays we get together here for some chat. (Sometimes there’s a guest artist instead.) The topic varies from week to week, but everyone is welcome to participate in the comments.

Bridge fault line

image by Andy Beecroft via Wikimedia Commons

Earlier this week a friend and I were talking about disruptions to our normal routines. She’s going to be traveling a lot next month, with nearly each week spent in a different city. And I’ve just moved, so I’m finding myself having to reinvent nearly all my daily routines, from washing the dishes to exercising.

It’s occurred to me more than once lately that disruption isn’t always a bad thing. I work extremely well on airplanes, for example, because of the forced focus (and because I’m desperate to occupy my time!); the same can be said of doctors’ waiting rooms. With our move, even though I’m in the city I grew up in, I’ve never lived here as an adult, and that gives me fresh eyes. I was telling my friend that I find that disruptions can decrease the time we have for creative work, but sometimes they make up for it with clarity.

Has this been the case for you too? What kind of disruptions have the worst impact on your work? Are there compensations?

See you in the comments!

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A second round of writing prompts!

Remember my daily writing prompt newsletter? After meaning to revive it for five months, I’m finally doing so. The new round will go from the beginning of March until the end of April (so they’ll be seeing me off to Toronto!).

This time, instead of doing daily prompts, I will send them out MWF, and I’ll incorporate longer prompts as well as the short, single-word/phrase ones. There will still be photo prompts, and I plan to try audio or video prompts this time too.

If you’re interested in signing up, visit this page. The first prompt will go out on Friday, March 2, but you may join at any time during the project.

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Ocean poem

Last night Erik and I were talking in bed, during that dreamy, half-awake state just before sleep. We brought up things we wanted to do, and I mumbled, “I want to go to the coast. It’s been awhile since I saw the ocean.” Now that’s actually not true — I drove up to San Francisco just two days ago — but at that moment of drowsiness all I felt was a strong yearning to stand on the shore and look out at the Pacific. As I was drifting off a little voice washed into my mind and sang this poem. I got up and wrote it down, and then fell asleep.

Ocean poem

o o ocean
ocean sun
ocean shine

o o ocean
ocean roar
ocean whisper

o o ocean
ocean mist
ocean cold

o o ocean
ocean fresh
ocean stink

o o ocean
ocean salt
ocean deep

o o ocean
ocean sky
ocean earth

o o ocean

I’d love sometime to read/sing this poem the way it sings in my mind, but I’m feeling a bit self-conscious about trying it publicly. Maybe another day!

I’m really behind on emails and replying to blog posts and comments (here and on everyone else’s), but I’ll catch up soon.

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